Before Gyan

Dipali had a lot of conflicts when something goes wrong and also was lazy. However, she had very strong faith and determination to attain Moksha, and hence, Dada's Gyan In this matter she is full of hope no matter how much ever difficulties she had to face. She also saw faults of the front person if something goes wrong, but it was only till the matter of making that front person realize. No revenge except for some small matters. She had a depression for last 2-3 years because she lost faith in herself and believed everything to be good for nothing except primary necessities and music. This made her mind very weak to fight and believe in reality. However, she met her friend who is a common person and she told Dipali about atma and Moksha. And finally, Dipali made her decision to live for only Moksha and let others too achieve it.  

During Gyan

When I went to take Gyan, it was really something for which I was longing from my births to births. I felt peace. I had lied to my mother and had taken this Gyan This also I could not tolerate because it was in my nature that everything should be done with understanding and no wrong mediums will be used. However, I was very happy that I got what I wanted. While taking Gyan, some bad thoughts did come to my mind, but my mind was concentrated in gyan-vidhi. So, all these thoughts just went like unattended thoughts! This was really something very natural and I was very happy about this. This is the power of Gyan! (Atma's identity)

After Gyan

My entire internal condition was changed. Internally, all the anger, pride, greed, attachments had lessen as Gyan had been working internally. I could not explicitly be in Dada's Gyan and Agnas, but internally, Gyan did it settings that reduced my all hurtful behavior through mind, body, and speech. All wrong beliefs disrooted automatically. I started reciting Trimantra internally and automatically. In dreams, it was so natural that mahatmas and Niruma with me are doing bhakti and that Niruma and I composed a new song and new tunes. We had already composed songs. But I forgot them when I got up from sleep. Also, when Niruma left this Bharat kshetra (Earth) and departed, I was in complete natural state and not a single second I felt that Niruma is not here. Because I Gyan worked from inside having the belief that Niruma is a pure soul. So no death and no birth! This is bliss! When I went to meet Niruma on the next day of Gyan, I could not meet her because there were lot of Mahatmas surrounding her. And now, because of Gyan these were my bhaav: - "Niruma is now not in state of listening to each of us". Doesn't matter! Let her have rest and I will meet her the next time for sure! I will not force her to meet me. In fact, my love is such that we will meet!" Such selfless thoughts is because of Gyan. No, I wish to do her's, Simandhar Dada's and Dadashri's Darshan in Mahavideh Kshetra! This is Gyan! No tension, no worry - only pure love! 

Jai Sat Chit Anand