Before
Gyan
Dipali had a lot
of conflicts when something goes wrong and also was lazy. However,
she had very strong faith and determination to attain Moksha, and hence, Dada's Gyan In this
matter she is full of hope no matter how much ever difficulties she
had to face. She also saw faults of the front person if something
goes wrong, but it was only till the matter of making that front
person realize. No revenge except for some small matters. She had a
depression for last 2-3 years because she lost faith in herself and
believed everything to be good for nothing except primary
necessities and music. This made her mind very weak to fight and
believe in reality. However, she met her friend who is a common
person and she told Dipali about atma and Moksha. And finally,
Dipali made her decision to live for only Moksha and let others too
achieve it.
During Gyan
When I went to
take Gyan, it was really something for which I was longing from my
births to births. I felt peace. I had lied to my mother and had
taken this Gyan This also I could not tolerate because it was in my
nature that everything should be done with understanding and no
wrong mediums will be used. However, I was very happy that I got
what I wanted. While taking Gyan, some bad thoughts did come to my
mind, but my mind was concentrated in gyan-vidhi. So, all these thoughts
just went like unattended thoughts! This was really something very
natural and I was very happy about this. This is the power of Gyan!
(Atma's identity)
After Gyan
My entire internal
condition was changed. Internally, all the anger, pride, greed,
attachments had lessen as Gyan had been working internally. I could
not explicitly be in Dada's Gyan and Agnas, but internally, Gyan
did it settings that reduced my all hurtful behavior through mind,
body, and speech. All wrong beliefs disrooted automatically. I
started reciting Trimantra
internally and automatically. In dreams, it was so natural that
mahatmas and Niruma with me are
doing bhakti and that Niruma and I composed a new song and new
tunes. We had already composed songs. But I forgot them when I got
up from sleep. Also, when Niruma left this Bharat kshetra (Earth)
and departed, I was in complete natural state and not a single
second I felt that Niruma is not here. Because I Gyan worked from
inside having the belief that Niruma is a pure soul. So no death
and no birth! This is bliss! When I went to meet Niruma on the next
day of Gyan, I could not meet her because there were lot of
Mahatmas surrounding her. And now, because of Gyan these were my
bhaav: - "Niruma is now not in state of listening to each of us".
Doesn't matter! Let her have rest and I will meet her the next time
for sure! I will not force her to meet me. In fact, my love is such
that we will meet!" Such selfless thoughts is because of Gyan. No,
I wish to do her's, Simandhar Dada's and Dadashri's Darshan in
Mahavideh Kshetra! This is Gyan! No tension, no worry - only pure
love!
~ Dipali Gandhi , Mumbai, India
